My Poetry

Silent Rain

 

Have you ever cried in vain?

Your tears fell like a silent rain

The cold embrace of loneliness

Grasping like an angry fist

Wandering from here to there

Not belonging anywhere

Eyes that spawned a million tears

That sees a world which never cares

A face that never gave a smile

Because it never felt worthwhile

 

The cuts were deep

You felt the pain

Drops of blood

Like silent rain

Tried so hard to comprehend

Why your scares would never mend

 

A wasted life drifts down the drain

Still... no one hears the silent rain

 

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Grave Thoughts

 

Crumbled concrete crosses

Crushed upon the clay

Names engraved on stone and steel

Destined there to stay

A gathering was formed

Around each and every grave

Many mourning for their loved ones

Tortured looks of pain

Countless tears from reddened eyes

Have touched this very earth

Where later feet would tread that ground

Digging up the turf

I looked around as wild weeds grow

On flowerless plots where no one goes

Dates of birth on every stone

Once celebrated years ago

Now cracked, forgotten and left alone

These resting places time has worn

And what is not the vandals scorn

It saddened me to see this place

Abandoned ruins left to waste

Yet reading many stones I saw

The life of those who lived before

Now laid to rest and breathe no more

As I begin to leave I find a frightening question come to mind

In this place of many graves

How many souls were lost or saved?

 

 

 

If I Was

 

If I was a bird

I’d fly so high

No one could hurt me

Way up in the sky

 

If I was a breeze

I’d make the trees dance

And whistle a tune

Through every branch

 

If I was a flower

I’d welcome the bees

And grow in the places

That nobody sees

 

If I was a valley

That you roamed all about

I’d echo your name

Every time you did shout

 

If I was a raindrop

And I saw you cry

I’d land on your check

Chase the tear from your eye

 

If I was a rainbow

And you didn’t care

I’d pack up my colours

And just disappear

 

 

 

The Fallen

 

The dream didn’t last

As it shattered like glass

In a thousand pieces or more

Just brushed aside

By the dreamer who cried

And couldn’t remember what for

 

A painful old pile of memories sat

In the corner of life where no hope is at

And everything's there that ever was lost

Or just cast aside, or casually tossed

 

This is the place we know so well

And hide all the stuff

We care not to tell

 

Haunted by some photograph

Of happy days gone by

And times when one once smiled and laughed

Yet now can only cry

 

Where eyes have lost the needful want

Of pleasures once allowed

Like cared for things that torture us

Within our darkest hour

 

 

 

Judgment Day

 

To view mankind and taste it’s lies

To see it with unblinded eyes

A tortured world

On a lustful ride

On a ship called self

On a sea called pride

 

Prophets, Priests of every creed

The most elite

The Beast deceived

A twist of scripture

Hidden sins

“To be a god”

The Devil grins

 

Temples, Towers, Bishops, Popes

Around men's necks they put their ropes

Many vain a mortal said –

“The Only Path to God I lead”

Some kept Christ upon the cross

Still in darkness

Ever lost

 

The world religions prayed to God

While on the souls of men they trod

They all believed they were the way

Until their trial

On Judgment Day!

 

 

 

Of Moments Passed

 

She looks beyond her present state

No future does she see

With wrinkled hand she hesitates

To sip her cup of tea

 

Her eyes but look with pleasures lost

That shone in younger years

A handkerchief with name embossed

To hide the forming tears

 

Her living room without a sound

Still so dimly lit

With family photos all around

Silently she sits

 

She trembles as she moves to speak

But words have long since gone

Manages to sigh then weep

And wonders what went wrong

 

I hold her frail and withered hand

She gazes in my eyes

I cannot find the words to say

As I watch her slowly die

 

 

 

Beauty of Creation

 

I will always marvel at the beauty of creation

The way the wind moves through the trees in every generation

 

Mountains of blue jelly reaching to the sky

Snow decorates their peaks like cream

Makes one want to fly

 

I stop to watch the sunshine sparkle on the river

Like a stream of diamonds

With riches to deliver

 

The rainbow’s arc is hope for me my winter tears will clear

And promise me a summer’s shine a warmer day is near

 

 

 

Going Insane

 

They gave me pills and far away thrills

And made me forget who I am

They dressed me in white and told me what’s right

I told them “I don’t give a damn”

 

I see Mum I see Dad, I see me as a lad

I see hands that approach in the dark

I hear voices that scare me

And touches that tear me

In my arm goes something that’s sharp

 

In a room with no view

So I rock and I spew

And shiver with unknown pain

 

Now everything's spinning

I’m crying, then singing

And slowly I’m going insane

 



Him and Her

 

                  HIM

My love, my love what have I done?

You always said I was the one

So much we shared, two hearts so pure

Like vintage wine we did mature

We walked the path simplicity

Your love I craved necessity

Oh my love what have I done?

You always said I was the one

 

                HER

Fret not for me oh naive man

Those things were true when we began

I am a different creature now

I know not why

I know not how

Fret not for me oh naive man

 

                HIM

Oh my love I feel so cold

Without your love as I grow old

I wear your ring still like a glove

As a ghostly shadow of our love

 

Now…take my tears and wash your feet

That crushed this heart that strains to beat

My love…my love, I see you leave

Yet still I struggle to believe

No last kiss…there will be none

But …you…always said I was…the one

 

 

 

Memories of You

 

When we were together

You promised me so

That we’d be forever

And you’d never go

 

When you kissed my lips

My heart skipped a beat

Never thought love

Could make me so weak

 

Promises made

Devoid of all thought

All of those lies

I desperately bought

 

Places we strolled

And memories there

Like ghosts that go haunting

I just cannot bear

 

There is that tree

Where I carved your name

Where the happiest place

Now causes pain

 

“I love you” you said

Got used to those words

Now echoes that ricochet

Still in my head

 

Meaningless are my tears to you now

If only they mattered

If only

Somehow

 

 

 

Through A Child's Eyes

 

When I was lost in younger years

Without the taint of modern tears

Barefoot and fancy free you see

That's the way it was with me

 

Daddy was a hero then

He was the strongest of all men

Whenever pain or heartache loomed

Mummies kiss could heal all wounds

 

Taken from them

Placed afar

The longest ride

The meanest car

 

In a place so far from home

Where father’s legend was unknown

And mothers kiss was not the same

This time it took away no pain

 

Things unspoken

Hurt so much

Feel so broken

Tainted touch

 

If I for but a moment dared

To welcome back one single year

Of shattered dreams, a broken heart

My family torn so far apart

 

Father dies

Mother cries

My heart turns cold

I see no hope... through a child's eyes

 

Family Lost

 

"This is my home"

She says without a smile

I listen

Quietly tearful all the while

 

"All those I loved once filled that living room

where much living now has turned to lifeless gloom"

 

"And at that table family all would eat

oh the smell of minted peas and roasted meat"

 

"Children playing, laughter everywhere,

conversation filled the homely air"

Their absence now is more than she can bare

 

Her husband John has long since gone

she never loved again

I even thought she would submit

but soldiered on in pain

 

"They all found other places now to go,...apart from you"

She said

Then cried and bowed her trembling head

 

For once I had no clever words to say

As I watched my mother's broken heart give way

 

I held her in my arms and kissed her head

I wept with her

Then nothing more was said

 

Denial

 

In the coldest winter nights, I see you here

And only you will know that I am weak

I tell you how it’s good that you are near

I wonder why it is you fail to speak

 

People say I have to let you go

And speak as if you do no longer breathe

I will ignore their madness even so

Yet wonder why it is I seem to grieve

 

You forgot again to meet me at the park

I sat for ages waiting for you there

I left because it got too cold and dark

Do not mistake this rain drop for a tear

 

There’s your book and coffee cup

With your memories infused

Placed within a cardboard box

As if they are not used

 

Suddenly I gasp for air

My body’s strength deserts me now

I start to sweat and shake with fear

I know… you… are... no longer... here

 

 

I Cry

 

I miss the recognition of me in your eyes

Now you wonder who this stranger is

Sitting by your side

 

And I cry

 

So cruel is time

To steal your mind

Of moments...friends...and memories

And family left behind

 

And still I cry

 

What I would give to see you smile

Or hear your voice...or chat a while

 

So there you sit...with eyes so wide

And still I hope in vain

 

Like an object that has been removed

Though its shadow still remains

 

Photo: Me & Mum. She seems so wayward now :(

 

Twilight of Shadows

 

In the twilight of shadows

Where storm clouds abound

In the dusk of my mind

Where no hope is found

 

A rain swept cemetery

Deep in my soul

A breeze of insanity

Whistled and rolled

 

In the furthest corner

Of darkest despair

I come face to face

With all that I fear

 

Tombstones like strangers

Brokenly stare

Engraved with those memories

I scarcely can bear

 

Hills shaped like monsters, I shudder to look

From behind they hide creatures

My childhood they took

 

Branches of trees twisted in pain

They creak and they moan

And they scream out my name

 

Shivers like spiders

They crawl down my spine

I shake just a little

I’m lost in my mind

 



Bitter

 

Sitting in this room

Alone in the dark

Music quietly playing

Colder is my heart

 

Bitter at the world outside

I'm Angry at myself

Isolations my best friend

Better than my health

 

Don't want anybody near

Uneducated fools

Leave me in my bitterness

To dwell in my despair

 

Stand Firm

 

Time is like sand that slips through our hand

We waste it so long and it’s suddenly gone

Oh, how it’s suddenly gone

 

Lose not yourself to material wealth

Forget not the ones in need

For many would live as Kings in a Palace

And suffer the children to feed

 

Live not in a daze

For the world is a maze

To capture your every glance

To bind you to things

Of which the world brings

But never to give you a chance

 

Let not your heart grow cold

Cling to the hope that you hold

When a dream that stood tall

Then suddenly falls

Is the emptiest sight of all

 

Me and Angie

 

Me and Angie we were close

As close as friends should be

We had one thing on common

We were always meant to be

 

Me and Angie in the school yard

That’s where we first met

I was ten and she was eight

Not quite adults yet

 

Me and Angie climbing trees

Living life so recklessly

Sharing secrets like friends do

Life got harder as we grew

 

Me and Angie always said

We’d be best friends for good

I guess all things must sometimes end

But some things never should

 

Me and Angie had to split

She’s moving up in life

It seems she met a new best friend

She’s someone else’s wife

 

Me and Angie are no more

It’s been so many years

Would she still remember me?

Hmm, I wouldn’t think she cares

 

Wide-Eyed Little Boy

 

Wide-eyed little boy

Playing with your toy

You wonder what went wrong

Where has Daddy gone

What did you do wrong

To make Mummy cry so long

 

Wide-eyed little boy

Still playing with that toy

A gift from Daddy long ago

Those memories just flow

How you sat on Mummy’s knee

Watching Daddy eat his tea

 

Wide-eyed little boy

You hold on to that toy

Hope within your heart still burns

Of the day when Dad returns

So many things to show him

So many things to say

All the pictures you did draw him

Will be given on that day

 

Gone will be all heart ache

Gone will be all pain

When you look at Mummy

And see her smile again

 

The Joker

 

Alas I was the Joker

Amongst a house of cards

Taken from a royal pack

And given no regard

 

Am I but a jester?

The question’s probably mute

For unlike all the other cards

I never wore a suit

 

How I tried to serve

The mighty King of Hearts

And belong among his kingdom

Of so many parts

 

It seems there is no place

For such a lowly card to stand

Unless I was a wild one

I couldn’t lend a hand

 

Now see the Queen of Diamonds

Too rich to ever care

For such a lonely Joker

With but a simple prayer

 

The Jack tried to befriend me

Or so he did pretend

Till he struck me with his club

And proved himself a fiend

 

So I did resist him

That Jack of every trade

And went nowhere near him

Be it Diamond, Club, Heart, Spade

 

Just a little shuffle is all I want to feel

To be part of a game or even just a deal

So if you ever see this lonely card

Upon the table

Don’t hesitate to give a smile

If you think you’re able

 

My Friend

 

The distance is great between us

My Friend

Though years cannot change my heart

And memories bring us together

While differences keep us apart

 

My shoulder is yours to cry on

Whether you need it or not

Your name I defend in your absence

But I make sure it’s never forgot

 

If you should speak I will listen

For help, you need only but ask

Being your friend is an honour

Not to be left in the past

 

Impressions

 

I beheld a place where I’d never been

And surrounding me sights I’d never seen

Yet a strange but familiar feeling was there

But I couldn’t quite place it

It didn’t seem clear

 

The evening sky

The setting sun

The swishing sounds where a river did run

Content as I was

I didn’t feel right

This mystery bothered me all through the night

 

When I awoke I instantly knew

The familiar feeling was the absence of you

For you loved going places you’d never been

Observing new things that you’d never seen

You would watch the sun set in the evening sky

And smile as the flowing river went by

 

Love Me Not

 

Love me not, for I will not love you back

Nor heap on me and then expect

Such social niceties for which I lack

 

I have no need of friendship now

Or any other lie

That such delusions do impart

With which I must deny

 

What is the view from your pedestal?

How do you judge me so?

You hate in me what is in you too

Which you hide and yet think I don’t know

 

Do not touch me

For I have been touched before

By dirty filthy tainted hands

When I was a child of four

 

I am once again wrapped in the darkness of my sarcasm

The pain of my childhood is gone

And recent afflictions from misguided trust

Will not now torment me for long

 

If Only I'd Cared

 

In this big old empty house

I choose one room to dwell

Lest memories of stale laughter

Remind me how I fell

 

If only I’d cared

 

I’m relieved to see the rain outside

Puddles on the ground

Like tears I can longer cry

The sky somehow has found

 

If only I’d cared

 

There is a cold chill that creeps through the air

Makes me shiver

And think out of fear

That things could be different

And you’d still be here

Oh…

But if only I’d cared

 

If only…

I’d cared

 

 

I Loved You

 

Like the first of spring

When flowers bloomed

The fragrant air

The birds would sing

 

I Loved You

 

Like the summer swell

Hot with passion, bodies touched

In love with you I fell

 

I Loved You

 

Like the autumn fool unbound

Oh your love like leaves that dropped

And scattered all around

 

I Loved You

 

Like the winter

Cold and scared

Rain drops mixed with tears

Till I no longer cared

 

I Loved You

 

Quantum Poetics

 

There is Time, there is Space, and there is Matter

Infinities explode then they shatter

 

Sub-atomic particles, A Kaon so-called

Mysteriously mocking the relative all

 

The faster clocks travel, the idea should stick

Increasing the speed, the slower they tick

 

“Punctuated equlibria” and other such musings

Of Eldredge and Co with convenient choosing

 

Quantum dilemmas, logistic equations

Thermodynamics and paradoxations

 

Singularities, Probabilities, now fancy that

Chaos and Order, and Schrödinger’s Cat

 

Laws of a different nature they be

The second one states about entropy

 

A Belousov-Zhabotinsky reaction display

Like a child’s toy kaleidoscope

Some might just say

 

The patterns of Chaos

Eerie indeed

A stranger attractor

Through a lens we may see

 

Quantum Theory, a state in defiance

If you don’t find it scary

Then you don’t know your science

 

 

Out of the Shadows

 

I am the poetic justice of a cold and desperate world

A merciless creature of the night

I humble the proud with furious rebukes

Alas there can be no respite

 

Born out of the darkest regions of the soul

In the shadows unseen till I strike

I’m that shiver that creeps down your spine

The unspeakable fear of the night

 

Like a terrifying force of nature

I move faster than the speed of dark

A cruel messenger sent without pity

To punish the evil at heart

 

I have no fear, remorse or mercy

For those who would seek to infringe

I can neither be bargained or reasoned with

I have watched the most fearless men cringe

 

Out of the shadows… I will always find you!

 

The Artist

 

I was an artist,

The brush was my knife

The paint was my blood

The canvas my life

 

My paintings were endless

And the critics were too

So I painted much harder

It’s all I could do

 

I painted all night

Till my canvas was full

Ran out of room

But I gave it my all

 

I used so much paint

They threw out my brush

It made me feel faint

But it gave me a rush

 

They hung out my canvas

And hoped it would dry

Removed all my tools

Till the artist had died

 

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Sometimes

 

Sometimes there are moments in your life

When you feel the whole world sigh

And simply turns its back on you

And slowly pass you by

 

Sometimes

 

Sometimes you think the tears you shed

Will matter all the while

But alas they land in solitude

Forgetting once you smiled

 

Sometimes

 

Sometimes it’s false bravado

Thinking all is well

Struggling through another day…

Alone

In your private little hell

 

Sometimes

 

Sometimes we don’t all make it

It’s just the way it goes

Some soar upon life’s highest highs

Some hit the lowest lows

And die

 

Sometimes

 

Masks

 

I’m a tainted soul by darkened hands

I’ve seen a lot of things you wouldn’t understand

I’ve been hurt by a life that’s so damn shitty

I don’t need your help; and I don’t want your pity

 

Over educated yet under achieved

I know a lot of things others can’t perceive

How I frown on the wisdom of idiots and fools

Don’t need their acceptance, nor play by the rules

 

So-called friends have come and then gone

Littered my life and then just carried on

I have struggled to run in this fake human race

And the masks of humanity worn on its face

 

Are you real? I challenge you all

When everyone leaves and there’s no one at all

When your friends are all gone and you’re sitting alone

No need to pretend or try to belong

 

Who will see who you really are?

When popular opinion no longer matters

Your life; a quotation of other thus far

When death comes a knocking the masquerade shatters

 

Child in a Shell

 

It’s dark this early in the morning breeze

A young child wanders where he shouldn’t be

Footsteps echo on the pavement street

The shuffling sounds of another’s feet

 

A familiar face so close to home

Beckons me in and then we’re alone

In the blink of an eye

In the grass laden frost

Threats found in whispers

Innocence lost

 

So much to hide in the mind of a child

Feelings of guilt are driving him wild

Father has stained the carpet in beer

Cigarette ash I smell everywhere

 

“Mother” I plead, but alas she can’t hear

The pill bottles empty, she hauntingly stares

“What a gifted young boy”

“A pity” they say

I learned how to hate on that very day

 

Taken away in such clinical style

Strained to remember my mother’s sweet smile

Dragged by my hair and slapped in the face

Seething inside with contemptuous rage

 

I prayed for mother or father to come

To bring me back home

To reclaim their son

 

I grew up in violence, sin and rejection

It taught me to fight and despise all affection

Like tainted illusions of trust, hope and love

Spoken by others and worn like a glove

 

In the mind of a man, in the dark hides a child

In a place that is cold, and really quite vile

The ground is like quicksand that’s holding him fast

Flashes like lightening reflecting his past

 

No one came to save him then, no ones coming still

Finding ways to keep on going

If even but by pill

 

The monster’s dark embrace is strong

There is no escape as such

And though the creature may be gone

I feel the monsters touch

 

He Remembers

 

He remembers every word once spoken

Every dream and promise broken

 

He remembers every smile and frown

A suite, a rose a wedding gown

 

He remembers every friend and foe

Through summers’ warmth and winters’ snow

 

He remembers every tainted touch

At times the pain was just too much

 

He remembers times when people cared

And times when there was no one there

 

He remembers tears that flowed so fast

When every lonely moment passed

 

He remembers all his children born

And the one we had to mourn

 

He remembers every tear he shed

Where every wrong path ever led

 

He remembers when he lost his mind

It was the hardest thing to find

 

He remembers when his heart turned cold

And a loveless, bitterness took hold

 

He remembers all the old illusions

Love and trust and such delusions

 

He remembers when the earth did shake

The lives and homes that it did take

 

But he forgot how to forget

And so remembers all regrets!

 

The Shaking

 

The earth just keeps on moving

Beneath my very feet

The cracks keep on appearing

And make the old house weak

 

I see the hidden terror in the eyes of those around

I watch them as they try to bypass all the broken ground

 

I see the children shudder

After every shake and jolt

That pulses through the underground

From this deadly fault

 

My city falls around me, and people die in pain

Cracks in concrete, open wounds, the bloody liquefaction stain

Streets of rubble, twisted bridges, broken buildings, new formed ridges

First the rumbling, then the crumbling, then the sights of structures tumbling

A city once so beautiful

That stood so proud and wonderful

Is now a ghost that haunts us all.

 

Hope

 

I know you think you can’t go on

You feel that no one cares

When you’ve poured out everything you’ve got

In a heartless world of tears

 

“This is it”, you tell yourself

On the verge of giving in

No ones here again this time

The irony wears thin

 

Look around at what you have

Possessions once adored

No longer satisfy your soul

Once happy times abhorred

 

“Where are they now”? you ask yourself

Those who said they cared

And said they’d never leave you lost

And never leave you scared

 

Don’t give up my friend, hold on

I’ve traveled down that road before

Huddled in the darkest rooms

A hundred times or more

 

I’ve been down on my hands and knees

My eyes have burned like acid rain

Humility envelops me now

With all my life long fears and pain

 

Take my hand and we will stand

Together as if one

I’ll hold you up till you can walk

And one day you will run

 

Last Rites

 

Four walls of solitude

I last out my days

As a means to an end

Unworthy of praise

 

When I was a child, nobody came

To save me from evil, to save me from pain

Now I am older, it’s all just the same

No one is coming, as I go insane

 

Lowest of low

Scum of the earth

I scream in my sleep

Bleeding self worth

 

Anguish, humility, morbid despair,

Condemnation and heartache

Surrounded by fear

 

The most ultimate rapture

Irreversible act

The very last option

To my heart’s attack

 

The wind will still blow without me

And the sun will still shine

Still there’ll be laughter, and still there’ll be wine

Poets will write, and there will be a new song

All these things will happen

Long after I’m gone

 

Secret Tears

 

While I was lost in yesterday's fears

I learned how to swim in the sea of my tears

And only that glimmer of a possible hope

Suppressed violations, I scarcely can cope

Grief everlasting, Present and past

And yet still I crawl, till I do breathe my last

 

Father, oh how I miss you now

I understand within this hour

I lost the chance to tell you things

Acts of shame upon me sting

I utter cries into the night

As if it will bring some respite

I see my mother’s humbling state

And ever keep from her that dreadful day I hate

 

Breaking Points

 

I was ever the child lost in the atmosphere of my Mother’s despair

Wandering amidst the darkness of these, like before, weary and uncertain days

Pretended sanctimonious friends would stroll in and out of my life, without care

Their hypocrisies, I now rebuke, that judge my imperfectious ways

 

Ah, my childhood, murdered in a heartbeat, wrapped in a nightmare, ever unable to awaken from it’s sick and perverted disturbance

 

I fear I have learned only now how to hate! Hate for breakfast, lunch and dinner

I hate now, every last one of them, the molester, who stole my innocence away, with a bag of sweats and a game to play

The abuser, who broke my spirit, and smashed it like a worthless piece of glass,

The fake friends, who lied, betrayed, deceived and judged me, bringing up the constant errors of my past

 

I return their hurt for hate

 

My faith has gone, like fallen leaves, scattered by a winter breeze

I move ever slowly, back towards the darkness

My cold and dark familiar friend of old

Who sheltered me from pain’s constricting hold

 

The Coming of Winter

 

Silver stars scream in the darkest of dreams

Whilst whispers the moon to the sea

Clouds creep about like strangers left out

Raining down tears upon me

 

Wind waving willows

Waving farewell

To leaves who have long been a friend

Stolen away by autumns’ dismay

Left naked to ponder their end

 

Something so chilling

Moves ever so closer

Like a ghost that is yet to be seen

All living things just scurry for shelter

From a winter that’s really quite mean

 


 

Christmas at the Mall

 

A crowded mall

That overflows, with all this Christmas cheer

People smiling, children playing, laughter echoes in my ears

 

It echoes in my ears

 

The food courts full, no table spare, families eat together there

I wander through, alone and lost

 And no one ever cares

 

No one ever cares

 

I remember when I had someone, to be within this place

Desperately I look around for one familiar face

 

Just one familiar face

 

I hold within my hand a load, of Christmas cards to send

A pocket full of money and not a single friend

 

Not a single friend

 

I make my way to catch a bus

I’m heading home again

I’ll walk in with a smiling face

And once again pretend

 

Once again pretend

 

Poem of Pain

 

Walking down this broken street, in a broken city, with a broken heart

Tears flow from eyes once adored by her, wishing I could breathe my last...

 

Oh the phrase, to die a thousand deaths

This agonising pain inside

Thrown away like yesterdays trash

Tears too great for me to hide

 

Every gift she gave are ghosts, that haunt my days and sleepless nights

How am I supposed to cope? The sounds of planes and our websites

 

Every place within my city that we together walked in hand

I shy away or just avoid. My God I can not stand

I begged her not to let me go, am I nothing to her now?

We kissed, we loved we laughed then cried

From the sweetest moments all turned sour

 

My lover

My best friend

Oh my broken heart

I wish we could go back to the start

 

The Pawn of your Guilt

 

Here I am alone with my mum, hard to watch what I've become.

 

Lost so much in my life that's cursed,

my childhood innocence,

stolen,

what's worse?

 

I am the scapegoat,

the reason, excuse,

for others to be what they secretly choose.

 

I am not perfect, though all of my faults,

mistakes and discretions like wounds rubbed in salt.

 

All of my good deeds, all done without praise,

are all but forgotten, so quickly erased

 

Middle-Earth

 

From a land

Of natures heart

Forest hills

Open parks

Bathed in hot pools

Golden sand

Waterfalls

An ancient land

 

Pierce the clouds those mountains high,

Thunders loud, as lightning flies

It streaks and rips the velvet sky

 

Streams that run and kiss the stones

Echo sounds in watery tones

 

Places deep in no man’s land

Still untouched by mortal hands

Creatures many, do abound

In paradises still unfound

 

Valley greens, of different shades

Stretch the plains like patchwork jade

Native ferns, a floral clock

The grounds that shake

Refuse to stop

 

I know the rumble all too well

And how my once proud city fell

 

But still I love my far way land

The sun, the rain, a view so grand

And read my words for what it’s worth

Come hitter, visit Middle-Earth

 

 

All Poetry Copyright © Kerry Gray 2007